I don't know if I want to stand out or fit in.

Standing out seems scary to me. I can be dreadfully self conscious. And yet, fitting in sounds even more awful. What could be worse than just going along with what other people think, without a mind of your own?

I played chess in high school, which is a stereotypically nerdy sport. At first, I was totally worried about being teased about being a loser. But I realized eventually that the people who did look down on me for playing chess were people that I shouldn't care about anyways.

Then again, I never had the stereotypical high school experience of being bullied or picked on by the "popular people", so it wasn't as hard to be true to myself in this situation.

I'm worried, though, that I won't have the strength and courage to speak my mind when it matters.

I leave for college tomorrow, and I am resolving to be the person that I am. I refuse to compromise myself in order to make friends. And I will stick up for the things that I believe in.

(At least, that's the plan.)












































^ this is hard for me.