sorrysorrysorry
November 05, 2010
for the lack of updates!
i've had such a busy week...i had midterms on wednesday and thursday and homework due every other day. also i have to plan out my schedule for next semester and i'm worried about what to take. also i'm tired cause i'm sleep deprived but i can't fall asleep when i actually try and fall asleep.....why, body?! WHY?!?!
here are five little known things about me:
1. i have no ambition....and i mean this in a bad way, i think. i mean, i want to do something with my life but not necessarily like the people around me. this is why i have a hard time caring about what i do in school, because it feels like such a waste of my life. one of my friends didn't go to college (my only friend who did this; as you can see i'm pretty much one of those spoiled-brat-upper-middle-class kids who thinks that not going to college is unimaginable) and i admire her for doing what she wants to do in life. not everyone is cut out for a cubicle job, and i certainly feel like i will want to kill myself if i ever have a job like that.
2. i respect intelligence over most everything else, except perhaps a good sense of humor. admittedly, i don't respect people if they are intelligent jerks, but if i ever had to pick a trait to have, i would definitely pick either intelligence or a good sense of humor, because i feel like those are the two things that i admire most about people. i think this is a case of someone who's felt stupid all of her life wanting to be able to actually feel smart once in awhile though :P. at least i have the funny part down ;D
3. one of the things that i dislike the most about myself is that i hate it when people think badly of me. another thing i dislike about myself is that i tend to overanalyze things way too much. if i meet someone new and i want to get to know them better, i always feel like i'm intruding or annoying them if i talk to them. this probably stems from some sort of insecurity issues or something idk. i just get nervous around new people and wonder if they actually like me or whether they are just being nice.
4. i wish i was a better person
5. i love way too easily. but not necessarily in that way. if you know what i mean.
i've had such a busy week...i had midterms on wednesday and thursday and homework due every other day. also i have to plan out my schedule for next semester and i'm worried about what to take. also i'm tired cause i'm sleep deprived but i can't fall asleep when i actually try and fall asleep.....why, body?! WHY?!?!
here are five little known things about me:
1. i have no ambition....and i mean this in a bad way, i think. i mean, i want to do something with my life but not necessarily like the people around me. this is why i have a hard time caring about what i do in school, because it feels like such a waste of my life. one of my friends didn't go to college (my only friend who did this; as you can see i'm pretty much one of those spoiled-brat-upper-middle-class kids who thinks that not going to college is unimaginable) and i admire her for doing what she wants to do in life. not everyone is cut out for a cubicle job, and i certainly feel like i will want to kill myself if i ever have a job like that.
2. i respect intelligence over most everything else, except perhaps a good sense of humor. admittedly, i don't respect people if they are intelligent jerks, but if i ever had to pick a trait to have, i would definitely pick either intelligence or a good sense of humor, because i feel like those are the two things that i admire most about people. i think this is a case of someone who's felt stupid all of her life wanting to be able to actually feel smart once in awhile though :P. at least i have the funny part down ;D
3. one of the things that i dislike the most about myself is that i hate it when people think badly of me. another thing i dislike about myself is that i tend to overanalyze things way too much. if i meet someone new and i want to get to know them better, i always feel like i'm intruding or annoying them if i talk to them. this probably stems from some sort of insecurity issues or something idk. i just get nervous around new people and wonder if they actually like me or whether they are just being nice.
4. i wish i was a better person
5. i love way too easily. but not necessarily in that way. if you know what i mean.
Comments:
caniholdyou: Glad you updated! <3
ribbon_picktures: brilliant :) worth the wait
nov_way:
Great post! And I liked a couple of things in particular. As for you, good luck with everything! I hope your sleeping habits are going to get better, and it's amazing how everything you said is like a reflection of my thoughts about myself. haha. Thank you for this post.
skinnyclaire: amazing. i love that john green quote - i just made it my facebook status. i completely understand the whole lack of ambition thing. i graduated college in may, and now i have a cubicle job (it's only for a year though), and i am going crazy. literally. but i have no blasted idea what i want to do in my life, what would make me happy, what's even possible to accomplish....it's a miserable, defeating feeling.
SeXyBlKnEsEcHiC08: Amazing. Loved the last picture.
spare_key:
best post i've seen all week <333333 i am speechless, this took my breath away.
havea wonderful weekend♥
tobefree10: hey, just to say I really like your site- the photos are amazing. are you still in school? i didn't go to college, and i have a job, its not the end of the world.
bom_diggity_quotes: love! :D
xraindropsonroses: Very good post! I loved it!
thexCITYxsplit: oh, the ambition thing, i feel you. no 9-5 here. you can really do anything, though, and a lot of people don't get that. no need to take a traditional career path<3 i hope you find something, though. that is hard. and i just straight up love #5, and iunno if thats so much of a bad thing. wonderful pictures as always =]
xsuicidalxinsomniacx: i'm totally the same like you when it comes to 3, 4, and 5....great post! <3
slowdown_sugar: this post is full of fantasticness
FallingSafely: If you can't sleep and you have no motivation maybe you have a case of depression? I know people in today's society sometimes hear depression and think "weakness" like you should just deal with it. But depression is a chemical thing. And it takes a lot to get that through a persons head. A chemical thing like a person who suffers from juvenile diabetes doesn't get insulin, your brain may not get certain chemicals. Like serotonin, dopamine, etc. Depression can cause the body and mind to slow down, you may have trouble sleeping or over sleep, you may loose your appetite or overeat, you may have trouble performing everyday tasks that were once easy. (For example things as simple as hanging up a coat may seem like a chore, or filling out an application may seem daunting.) You may feel down on yourself and suffer from low self esteem. It could reinstate the fact that depression is for "weak people". Depression can also cause physical symptoms. Aches and pains, headaches. Do you have a family doctor, or are you close to your parents? I started out in college severely depressed and it was awful for me. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. There's different severities of depression and it's treatable if you stay in open communication about it.