i feel so cold towards everything

i am not particularly intelligent
creative or beautiful
i am not great at anything
but i've always thought that
i was a good friend.
lately, i haven't even been that
(by my best friends own admission)

i feel so cold and that is the opposite
of what i should be
i feel useless to society
what is the point of existing if i
can't even be a good person?

i don't understand where this came from
i just want to go to sleep and never wake up