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i feel inadequate all the time. everyone around me is so smart and driven and great at what they do. and then there's me. i'm not even entirely sure if this is what i want to do with my life. sit at c...

sometimes i wish that my thoughts could travel down my brain, through my arms, to my hands, where i could type them out or write them down. i so wish i could express how i'm feeling, but it's impossib...

i haven't updated for more than 2 months! which is really a shame, as i miss doing this quite a bit. i started out by saying that a lot of things had happened to me in these past few months, because i...

when i get sad, i can feel it enter me and sort of seep through my bones. takes a while for this kind of sadness to go away, yknow?

   

 

so i'll be on a two week hiatus, y'all (unless i have a good internet connection in india, which is highly unlikely), so this is a suuuuuper long post! don't miss me too much ;D

also, apparently lucky charms wins favorite cereal as chosen by xanga readers of this blog. magically delicious, indeed!

mine is Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds.

 

there is this one saying (actually, i don't know if it's actually a saying, but i saw it on a graphic once, so whatever) that you should do all your crying in the rain. which sounds ideal because then...

thank you so so much for all of your lovely comments, you have no idea how much i appreciate them!

cannot believe my freshman year is over.

:( lesson learned?

courtesy of http://acciorealworld.tumblr.comA Bug’s Life A Christmas Carol A Goofy Movie Aladdin** Aladdin and the King of Thieves Alice in Wonderland An Extremely Goofy Movie Atlantis: The Lost Empir...

i just want to go home

exams are over, this week is cut short for a fun break thingy that my college has, life is somewhat better than normalhope things are great for y'all!

worst feeling evaaari miss xanga lots If two past lovers can remain friends, it’s either that they are still in love or never were. -Kid CudiI don't know if this is true but maybe it is and maybe this...

i no longer feel like a good person. i'm sorry for hurting you. i've been really selfish. i don't regret doing this, but i regret how i did it. i do think that our relationship wasn't perfect and i di...

you know who you are

"questions of sciencescience and progresscould not speak as loudlyas my heart"

 

i don't think i'll ever, ever post anything this^ good. ever again.

sometimes i wonder what i am doing with my life...  

it feels horrible to be hated by so many at the same time :(going to an aquarium now, though :) hopefully that will make it better...hope you guys are great!

pulled three all-nighters in the last week, literally have had no time to update SORRY GUYZ I STILL LOVE YOU THOUGH \ time to do homework :( i am so tired :(

just thought you guys should know............

you guys wouldn't even believe it..  

   

yeah life has been pretty messed up this last week. i missed tumblr/xanga, sometimes i wish i could do this for a living.

Hey guys, sorry for the irregular updates. Lot of schoolwork! Hope you enjoy the post! Um not quite sure what this is, but I thought it looked cool! I wanna doggeh   ^Didn't get this one right aw...

but I had to turn my laptop in to get my touchpad fixed :( I was in withdrawal, believe me.

Hey guys! I'm V, I've posted on here a few times before. I'm not nearly as good as S(your regular poster), sorryyyy, she'll be back tomorrow! It's bright and sunny outside and I'm sitting by the windo...

i think this is some kind of disease. tetris-itis or something.--today i was talking to my parents about religion. it's quite nice to have parents who are open to me questioning the religion that i've...

:D <3      

thanks, you guys :)i got $20 and two bags for Christmas. did you guys get anything good? ❒ Single ❒ Taken ✔ WHO CARES, I’M AWESOME   "I am still so naïve; I know pretty much what I like and disli...

i feel so cold towards everythingi am not particularly intelligentcreative or beautifuli am not great at anythingbut i've always thought that i was a good friend.lately, i haven't even been that(by my...

If they ask you to stand still, you should dance. - Collum McCann Be yourself; everyone else is already taken. - Oscar Wilde I do not exist to impress the world. I exist to live my life in a way that ...

for some reason i do not like this post.it seems too sad to me. i might end up deleting it later.

"Unexpected intrusions of beauty. That is what life is." -Saul Bellow   "I am infinitely strange to myself." -John Fowles "It is a curious thought, but it is only when you see people looking ridi...

i am too interested in peoplenot in a creepy way {i think}i think i just want to get to know thembecause if you think about iteach person that you meet has their ownlife experiences and stories and fe...

did this once. accidentally called the police. good times.  

my nerves are completely shot.i just want to pass....how far my standards have fallen.good luck on your exams everyone <3  

 

don't think i've ever felt this crappy in my life.

it feels so weird to be home again...anyone else experiencing the same thing?  

sleeping in hospital waiting rooms leaves an awful crick in one's neck.thank you so much for commenting <3

she is the cutest thing! blah I know some people are like blahblahblahRonsucks BUT HE WILL ALWAYS BE MY FAVORITE <3 SOB T______T (sometimes)

i wanna go somewhere, i wanna leave

okay, not really. but sort of. yesterday, my friends and i got stuck outside a movie theater at two in the morning because the buses that were supposed to come periodically refused to come periodicall...

for the lack of updates!i've had such a busy week...i had midterms on wednesday and thursday and homework due every other day. also i have to plan out my schedule for next semester and i'm worried abo...

like i feel too much all the time. i care too much, i think. is it worse to care too much or to not care at all? "If they ask you to stand still, you should dance." - Collum McCan

"It’s always great when you can be a nerd, acknowledge that fact, and be proud of it. And even if “nerd” isn’t the first word that you’d use to describe yourself, celebrating whatever nerdy tenancies ...

I got into a "fight" with one of my friends yesterday....yeah this very rarely happens to me so it was weird. Cause I haven't even known him for that long, how can we already have a fight?!? But it's ...

  ^^^hate this so, so much  

& i feel awful.i don't think i've ever felt so stupid in my life.sorry for being all sad and stuff.i promise i'm a happy person in real life. i think things seem more bleak at night and when i am ...

"My candle burns at both ends it will not last the night. But ah my foes and oh my friends it gives a lovely light. " - Roald Dahl(if you are reading this, this^ is for you :])  

i miss the summeri miss my car and my mix cds that i would play on repeat every day until i got sick of them and burned new mix cds to play in my cari miss hugsi miss my mom's foodand my sister's squa...

i think that i love people too easily.also, i think that i am too anal about my xanga. i always have to have alternating text/non-text photos which makes it super difficult sometimes cause it's hard t...

today I lost my wallet but my friend ran halfway across campus to go find it for me. people are so nice here! also i had a good day because i finished my programming assignment a day early, which rare...

i just made this huge post and Xanga randomly deleted it :( SOB I WORKED SO HARD ON IT TOO :( ohwell you guys will have to wait a while for another post now, sorry :x

love you guyzschool is hard, yo

I had some free time so I decided to make another post! Hope you guys don't mind :x ^ It's amazing how some cities can be so beautiful and some can be absolutely horrible. Dunno if I posted this one b...

done with my math/calculus/computer science exams  :Di legitimately did so bad on my math exam though :( sigh. this school is quite difficult :(

This is a good weekend because:1) I DID KARAOKE LAST NIGHT. okayokay it wasn't really karaoke cause i didn't do the whole embarrassing standing-by-myself thing, i went with my friends but it was fun a...

scared as hell.

I hate how I have to take this AlcoholEdu course (basically something that's intended to scare us into never drinking alcohol in excess/at all) , when I know that I'm never going to drink. Blehhh I ha...

but I have so much work to do :(

why can't we all just be happy all the timei feel like i love everyone and everything and i don't want anyone to hurt and it hurts that i can't help anything

technically, I should be reading biology right now. I'm already two chapters behind! that's mostly because I've been concentrating on programming/discrete math class though.yesterday, I explored Pitts...

I realize this is the first update in a bajillion days, but oddly enough, I have homework now and stuff! College life is so crazy. My room mate is really nice and all but not as nerdy as me...her boyf...

I saw my boyfriend for the last time for ~3 weeks today. I miss him so much right now, words cannot express it.  

I will always repost Harry Potter pictures.

-i procrastinated through high school and ended up not actually learning anything. i feel guilty because i didn't take advantage of the opportunities that i am so lucky to have.-i complain about littl...

more later  

getting ready for breakfast right now and making myself pretty and all but instead I am making this post for you guys because most of the time I do not care what I look like.I feel like this is abnorm...

this short post but i'm in college now guysssss

I don't know if I want to stand out or fit in.Standing out seems scary to me. I can be dreadfully self conscious. And yet, fitting in sounds even more awful. What could be worse than just going along ...

I hate not giving credit for their pictures. And it's really hard to do that on Xanga, unless anyone has found a way to hyperlink pictures...? If so, do share!Tumblr has a really nice interface and it...

I always thought that the phrase "I love who I am when I'm with you" was stupid. What does that even mean? Why can't you just be like that with everyone and then love yourself all the time? But I thin...

& today, my SO and I took a walk in the park while it rained. it's nice to have someone to do stuff like that with. and i'm glad that prop 8 was overturned. more love in the world sounds good to m...

     

to all of those thinspo/fasting/anorexia/bulimia/some sort of eating disorder sites out there,   Please, stop. It breaks my heart to see girls around the world hold themselves to such an unhealth...

"It’s just that I don’t want to be somebody’s crush. If somebody likes me, I want them to like the real me, not what they think I am. And I don’t want them to carry it around inside. I want them to sh...

thanks for all of your nice comments.i was sick earlier yesterday. but then i took some pills and slept and felt better.also, i tried to do art today. i liked it.here's some art for you: "How can I be...

i feel awful"Look, I’m going to find a way to be happy, and I’d really love to be happy with you, but if I can’t be happy with you, then I’ll find a way to be happy without you." "We cannot change the...

I'm guessing you guys were wondering why my previous entry included a question about gay marriage in the title. This was mainly because I was curious to see how many people were for/against it. I'm al...

yes or no?

:Dthe lantern is from IKEA.   

but i am running out of things to keep myself occupied with :\  

my fave (:

& i don't even know why.i love this song though.  

and my ears are bleeding.

sorry for this short post now that it's summer i actually have a life?

 

if i was beautiful, i would take pictures of myself all the time and post them on my blog every day and then everyone would get tired of my face and stop looking at my blog but i would still look at i...

all of you. thanks <3--sometimes i wonder, is it wrong to hope for the best?i feel like people think that i'm naive for thinking that everything will work out in the end...but i feel like i would r...

my SO & I (i'm the female one in the picture (i.e. the one on the right))    

my friend is visiting from Washington :)

-take my sister to get a haircut-do the laundry -make my bed (optional)-study calculus-shop for a father's day gift   love this song (:

& also, i like this song.

is something i need to have.

make me nervous when i am driving :\also, i watched letters to juliet today. the guy was cute.

whenever i see cute pictures on facebook of people who are dating, it makes me so happy. they just look so happy together, it makes me happy. i feel sort of silly for wanting this, but i want to be a ...

by the way! i got my license (:i spent today partying (grad partying, that is). it makes me feel so grown up to be able to drive myself around and stuff. my friend and i stayed out past 9:30 :O (not t...

i'm scared of heights :xalso i need a job. suggestions, anyone?

credit: here here here here

i had a grad party today(more info later)

music can make me feel so much and i don't know why.(listen to this song, it's free on amazon right now, if you like it) ironically enough, the other day happier made me cry. these guys are so cute to...

i graduated on sunday!surprisingly enough, i wasn't sad at all.also my hat fell off twice while i was on stage.my clumsiness kills me -_- :((((((

there are times when i get really depressed about myself as a person.i've had a few good friends that i've grown apart from. and now when i try to initiate conversations with them, it just kind of fal...

...from disney! i missed updating for you guys ^^ so here's a rather long post <3

"i'm at a chinese restaurant, guess which one! hint: it's pretty high class!" -"is it panda express?!?!" "....."

i'm off to the happiest place in the world for a week, guys! don't miss me too much ;D

i will write something here laterbut now i am too tired to do so

this song makes my heart break: i'll be happierher voice sounds so damn sad gaaah it makes me so sad and yet i can't stop listening to it because it is so beautifullove is amazing (or something)but wh...

-your smile-the fact that you protect me-you're sweet, always-that you inexplicably do not lose your temper with me even when i am being irritable and crappy-you sing me songs when i am sick-you deal ...

(once upon a time) i used to be best friends with this boy.and we were really close. and we told each other everything.but then one day he told me that he "liked" me. and that changed everything.it hu...

I had a dream that someone posted a mean comment on my Xanga and it made me sad. This is slightly ridiculous.

watched 500 days of summer again yesterday. depression. credit: here here here(check them out, they are super talented)

this week in english class we are talking about the human condition.what do you think the "human condition" is?are we innately good? innately bad? or innately in-between? what do you consider to be th...

books: The Catcher in the Rye, Of Mice and Men, Harry Potter, This Lullaby, Anne of Green Gablesmusic: Death Cab for Cutie, Coldplay, Stars, The Strokes, Regina Spektormovies: Once, Eternal Sunshine o...

oh, how I love you all (whatever will be, will be)

{our lives together are made up of so manysmall,yet ohsohappy perfect moments}sometimes i wish i could take all the happy photographs in the world and put them in an entry.sometimes certain pictures j...

that we are all so dissatisfied with ourselves. if we stop and think about it, everyone has the same insecurities. in the end, i think everyone just wants to be loved. "do what you like like what you ...

with 50% of my AP exams. I took Stats and Computer Science today :) ignorance is bliss! XD

so here's the thing.my parents are asian. both of them came from relatively humble backgrounds and had to work hard for whatever they got in life. as their child, i am expected to do the same. i under...

you guys are so sweet. thank you :)      

any tips for a photography n00b? I'll upload the rest at some point. >>

it makes me so happy to see people's pet names for each other. even though it's such a small thing, it makes me see how much love there is in the world (:[either that or i am just really weird]

i have no reason to be unhappy. i am so lucky. no, you wouldn't believe how lucky i am to have the life that i do. (i feel like i should be grateful)i just want small things. i want it to be okay for ...

What is your guys' favorite petname? As in 'darling' or 'sweetheart' or 'honey' or 'baby' or 'Schnookums' etc? My favorite is 'love' because it just sounds so darn cute :]Sorry I haven't updated recen...

check out this website: music!

For all you old, experienced, college students/grads out there, what are the things that you would recommend bringing to college (i.e. for dorms)? And what would advise to not bring?Thanks <3 :)

(forever) "I exist when I think of you" "catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, save it for a rainy day"

the two towers, i love this movie (& you guys :D) lolz~ <3

YES YES YES. Credit: <3

I really dislike:-it when people leave the toilet seat up. is it really that hard to put it back down when you're done?-obnoxious people who are always try to get everyone's attention. obnoxiously.-ru...

The beginning of love is to let those we love be perfectly themselves, and not to twist them to fit our own image. Otherwise we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.Love casts out fea...

I use it as a break from studying. Looking at some of these graphics really makes me happy. I love beautiful things, even though they might not necessarily be beautiful to other people. I really hope ...

i got into a fight today. i never get into fights. my life is getting more and more complicated/crappy feeling. -__-

<3

don't you hate it when you start crying and you don't really know exactly what you're crying about?

but it hurts even more to not-love

you guys are so sweet. thank you.

"All the lives we could live, all the people we will never know, never will be, they are everywhere. That is what the world is."(Aleksander Hemon: The Lazarus Project) don't do it!

spend a lazy sunday~--college decisions suck >< click! -----> aww! ...with your typos :( yeahhhhh ;D THIS SO MUCH asdfjkl joey is so funny

I was bored, so this is longer (or at least, I spent more time on it) :D (except you <3) *sniffle* i know i've posted this before, but i love it. good point. XD

i hope things are going well for you :] STORY OF MY LIFE.

people are actually DOING their homework. i don't understand o.o

266 subscribers to date!thanks guys :]only 24 days (at most) til I make my college decision o.oso weird!

are you sad about something? ^story of my life at the moment. I STILL DO THIS!!!

RESTRAIN YOURSELF!

this has probably been the worst spring break of my life. i thought senior spring break was supposed to be the best one so far.

"Hey girls, you’re beautiful. Don’t look at those stupid magazines with stick-like models. Eat healthy and exercise. That’s all. Don’t let anyone tell you you’re not good enough. You are good enough, ...

but I'm vegetarian!

help me? i would appreciate anything and everything :) what a beautiful dress o.o

i miss you so much it hurts  

ohyeah to provide lovely pictures for youuuuu :)

accepted to the school of computer science at carnegie mellon university :)))

first college rejection courtesy of stanford university

Am I the only girl in the world that doesn't like The Notebook?

He's leaving at the end of this week. This sucks. I can't wait until summer. Carnegie Mellon decisions are being mailed out on Wednesday. So that means I'll probably know where I'm going to college by...

i don't post on here as much :( i'll try to change that :)

HIM:Hellooooo folks!!! I am feeling a bit sappy at the moment, so you guys are gonna have deal with a sickeningly sweet love post! YAY LOVE :)"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake...

THAT TOOK FOREVER.What is your favorite Jane Austen novel? Mine is either Pride and Prejudice or Emma. In Pride and Prejudice, I empathize with Mr. Darcy because I am socially awkward, just like him, ...

this post includes quotes + image + image + quote. do you prefer this kind of post or just a post with pictures?“Are you upset little friend? Have you been lying awake worrying? Well, don’t worry…I’m ...

My SO recently he expressed an interest in contributing to my Xanga. So now it will be run by both of us! (if he ever updates)

but she is, she is, she is!

YAY COLD WEATHER IS GONE FOREVERRRRR :) I was doing this at Barnes and Nobles the other day. I couldn't find the book, so I asked the assistant dude and he looked at me funny >> YEAH SO WHAT, I'...

that Steak and Shake have their Happy Hour right after school. Guess where I'll be after school every day from now on? hahahahahaha

college decisions are coming out starting next week. i am so nervous i could cry.

today i learned that doing something really boring can be really fun if done with the right people :]

we read this article in english class today about how kids no longer actually think for themselves anymore. all one has to do to get into college is to jump through certain hoops, so that is what they...

but i am just really tired -__-

-losing my cell phone charger-rude people-mondays-no sleep

today was not a good day but hopefully tomorrow will be better :] i hope tomorrow goes well for all of you as well!

by raymond carver He said it doesn't look good he said it looks bad in fact real bad he said I counted thirty-two of them on one lung before I quit counting them I said I'm glad I wouldn't want to kno...

today is a good day. WTF.

i got a Tumblr! uaremyfavorite.tumblr.com ; czech it out? thanks for all the recs, i appreciate it more than you know   Happy Holi everyone :)

what would you do, if you could do anything?also...12 recommendations on the last post? thanks so much, everyone!! ^^ submitted by ohso__giddy, isn't it adorable??

i have a new layout, yay!

math competition tomorrow at 8 = no sleeping in :( d'awwwwwww (is you)  

have you noticed that i really like balloons? it boggles my mind! (haha get it?)

thanks for rec'ing guyssssss :) shel silverstein = <3

how do you guys feel about snowtubing?

(especially by you)

i hate feeling inadequate.

goodnight everyone =D

YES brb that does suck. :\ guilty pleasure :x i hate this feeling :\

i just watched "(500) days of summer". i am now quite depressed. :(

sorry this is so short...but i just really want to sleep, to be honest -__-    

i hate being a girl around this time of the month :| men have it so easy. rawrrr. :|

i am so dependent on you. it is scary, not b/c i think you'll hurt me. just the fact that i need anyone so much is sort of scary.

which means a picture/graphic for each of you! :] thanks, again, for subscribing, 'ppreciate it!1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. 24. 25. 26. 27. 28. 2...

a friend and i went to a coldplay concert. we bought lawn seats. we ended up getting asked a couple of trivia questions by these two concert-head ladies and we won second row tickets. it was the most ...

so i like artistic things a lot. i like looking at them and i would like making them (if i could). i've never taken photography or art or ceramics in high school and i really regret that. it was all a...

you should go watch :)also:Overheard in New YorkCustomer: Um, can I get a discount on this coat?Cashier: Is there anything wrong with it?Customer: No, I just don't have a lot of money right now.--Urba...

to do list for weekend:-psychology notes-multivariable take home test/study for test on monday-statistics homework-comp programming project-comp prog hierarchy (due last friday) -get haircut i always ...

i spend every week wishing for the weekend.  <3 regina spektor gah i am grumpy often :( <3 regina spektor hermione cracks me up awwwww

what?? 271 views and 52 subscribers?! this is insanity. thanks to all who recommended :) ...am scared to leave home.   MGMT! dammit i hate when that happens :\ <3 mulan omg so much cuteness CA...

today at lunch, my friend told me that she's giving up junk food for lent. later, one of my other friends and I were discussing giving up junk food and we ended up making a bet that we could abstain f...

chinese and japanese are such pretty languages

6''-8'' of snow today but i still have to do computer science homework.i cannot wait til the end of may. hahah so true.

WARNING: sickeningly sweet post ahead e.e.cummings:) i cried like a baby during this movie. i love this.

Valentine's Day is overrated. But hey, any excuse to pig out on chocolate/sugary things is fine by me.Have a good day today everyone! :) forrealzzzz i cannot believe i'm going to graduate this year! i...

when i look at you, baby, my heart just triples in size...czech it out :)question: what is love to you? how you define it? or do you not define it? ^note that Luna's is upside down that looks really g...

this movie was so sad :( but i loved it pretty! mmmm ^my life :)   hehe ;D this looks like a cinderella castle ^_^ <3 :)

so here's the thing. i don't like twilight. or new moon or the whole series. i've read them! so i'm not just blindly going along with what everyone says. to me, edward just seems...boring. after admir...

this is another post because i cannot stop looking at beautiful pictures and do psychology notes and i figured that sharing is caring ^all from http://wordsoflove.tumblr.com askfljk such a good site ^...

We got a second snow day! Unfortunately, that means that school tomorrow is going to feel even more painful. I cannot wait for the summer.Again, thanks for subscribing. It is much appreciated. "We mak...

snow day today! so i figured the following pictures would be appropriate. thanks for subscribing :]The following quotes are from Song of Solomon, a book that we have to read from school. It won a Nobe...

“Every once in a while, people step up. They rise above themselves. Sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes - it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you can find hope in the ...

EDIT: i got bored and posted newer pictures intermittently. procrastination is the best.      Normal.dotm 0 0 1 14 80 Sycamore High School 1 1 98 12.0 0 false 18 pt 18 pt 0 0 false fals...

sorry only one quote today cause i'm lazy. subscribe please? don't feel obligated, of course."be the change you wish to see in the world" 

The quotes at the beginning are from 'Song of Solomon' by Toni Morrison. Hope you guys had a good day. :)   Normal.dotm 0 0 1 6 37 Sycamore High School 1 1 45 12.0 0 false 18 pt 18 pt 0 0 false f...

Thank god it's the weekend. A joke's a very serious thing. Reality continues to ruin my life. Some men are born mediocre, some men achieve mediocrity, and some men have mediocrity thrust upon them. &n...

  sometimes i wonder if it's all worth it. A heart is not judged by how much you love; but by how much you are loved by others. Now I know I have a heart, because it's breaking. "Some people with...

"if my heart was a house, you'd be home" "gravity cannot be held responsible for people falling in love"

"True terror is to wake up one morning and discover that your high school class is running the country." "Romeo and Juliet is a Goddamn timeless template. I saw it set in Ireland with an all female ca...